When I was first married, I had an almost crippling fear when my husband left the house. Anxiety would grip me as my mind raced through all the things that could happen to him the moment he walked out the door—car accidents, shootings, machine malfunctions on the plant floor, terrorist attacks.
I have an active imagination. It was not my friend.
Does this sound familiar to anyone?
This went on for weeks. Then months. I was terrified of losing him before our lives truly began. And I didn’t know what to do.
Then I came across this verse:
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” Philippians 4:6
So every morning when I heard the door close and the car start, I prayed. “Dear Lord, I give him up to you. Please keep him safe and bring him home.” It did not work immediately, because I was extremely aware that giving him up to God did not mean that God would give him back.
I knew in my head that God is good and he knows what is best. My brain told me to trust in God, but it was difficult when my anxiety was so tightly wound around my heart. Over the next days and weeks as I prayed, my fear would freeze me for a few seconds less until it no longer pinned me to the bed each morning.
Fast forward almost three years. Now, when an anxious thought grips me, I immediately throw it up to God. When I give it to Him, it loses its power over me and I can go on out my day unplagued by fear.
Three years ago, I would’ve loved to snap my fingers and fixed my anxiety. But it didn’t work like that for me. I had and have to make a daily decision to give my fears to God and trust him, no matter what He decides to do.
Is there something you need give up to God? Do you have anxiety when it comes to your husband or kids? Your finances? Your job? Your safety? What fears do you struggle with? How else have you found to combat them? Is there any way I can pray for you today? I’d love to hear from you!